Is it "dateline" or "deadline"? (laugh)
I know it is tough to go through the whole week without even touching the ground. It's not like one can sail through the seas without having to stop once in awhile. Right, so what she says definitely has me on the survival list.
That feeling of giving up hasn't giving up on me. But yet, there is something definitely worth it inside that big dumplings. Maybe one don't realize, maybe inside that big dumplings is nothing really special, but at a long term, you have already step from one level to another level.
All you need to do is to just go forward.
Don't push too hard, you need to sail. Adventures.
I am thankful. Because you're bigger than me, i need you as an example for me to look on to. (laugh)
Iyaa~
I am not good at praising. But i will definitely learn to praise properly.
Look forward to it! (>_<)
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Ohayo!
It is the last day in February ne.
I slept to my heart's content. (^^)
But that was because i haven't sleep for like 4 days..
Today i woke up after 18 hours of sleep. (sweat)
Still tired.
Gonna rest awhile, will then start a go go.
Deadline is on monday!?
Iko iko.
I slept to my heart's content. (^^)
But that was because i haven't sleep for like 4 days..
Today i woke up after 18 hours of sleep. (sweat)
Still tired.
Gonna rest awhile, will then start a go go.
Deadline is on monday!?
Iko iko.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Mid-spring night dream..
are meaningless.
It is empty and glass clear. Because it's a new beginning.
Whatever one feels in fear, feels the darkness, dream will always where one will go back to.
It will slowly wrap one in sorrow and happiness.
It is empty and glass clear. Because it's a new beginning.
Whatever one feels in fear, feels the darkness, dream will always where one will go back to.
It will slowly wrap one in sorrow and happiness.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Ugh..
Ohayo..
Big headache.
I can't stand it.
It's like its gonna explode ne. (O_)
Still sleepy.
I might collapse soon.
Headache.
Pray that i will get over it soon.
Big headache.
I can't stand it.
It's like its gonna explode ne. (O_)
Still sleepy.
I might collapse soon.
Headache.
Pray that i will get over it soon.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Oh no..
what i mean is someone who came in this morning to make this day a one sea of salt..
A critical attack in the morning.
I don't think that i have that creative brain of that kind.
I listen btw.
Please don't say anything before you even know what is THAT!!!
At loss, it make me look like an idiot.
(-3-)
Get me out of here ASAP.
Oh wait, there is still 2 months to go. B A K A ! ! !
Please forget about me.
A critical attack in the morning.
I don't think that i have that creative brain of that kind.
I listen btw.
Please don't say anything before you even know what is THAT!!!
At loss, it make me look like an idiot.
(-3-)
Get me out of here ASAP.
Oh wait, there is still 2 months to go. B A K A ! ! !
Please forget about me.
Too tired to..
even open my eyes..!?
But i will stay on by listening to this!
Oh yeah, i am loved.
(-3-)
Will keep on going with this.
Please push me from my back.
A r i g a t o u .
Please forget about me.
But i will stay on by listening to this!
Oh yeah, i am loved.
(-3-)
Will keep on going with this.
Please push me from my back.
A r i g a t o u .
Please forget about me.
Current..
I don't feel like want to start painting yet..
:(
Headache is all over me.
I have been down since yesterday.
I know it's not good to bring it to today but somehow.. it burns slightly with a pinch of salt.
It makes me totally down in the morning and to the afternoon.
Feels like want to rebel.
But i am too tired.
Toooooooooooooooooooooo tired.
Please forget about me.
:(
Headache is all over me.
I have been down since yesterday.
I know it's not good to bring it to today but somehow.. it burns slightly with a pinch of salt.
It makes me totally down in the morning and to the afternoon.
Feels like want to rebel.
But i am too tired.
Toooooooooooooooooooooo tired.
Please forget about me.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Uso
(O___)
I can't believe it.
They are moving again.
Announcement on 14 February..
\(^^)/ Uwaaa~
They gonna release new single in April!
Can't wait..
Just after Spring tour ne~
Tanoshi! (>_<)
Btw, Happy Valentine. (-_)
I forgot to put up the post.
I can't believe it.
They are moving again.
Announcement on 14 February..
\(^^)/ Uwaaa~
They gonna release new single in April!
Can't wait..
Just after Spring tour ne~
Tanoshi! (>_<)
Btw, Happy Valentine. (-_)
I forgot to put up the post.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Don't be afraid
Iyaa~
I felt much better.
Thank you thank you.
My gastric will keep getting it.
I need to take care myself properly.
Thank you.
Arigatou, 涙の温度 - シド. (bgm)
I felt much better.
Thank you thank you.
My gastric will keep getting it.
I need to take care myself properly.
Thank you.
Arigatou, 涙の温度 - シド. (bgm)
This is the beginning.
The work, the stress, the pressure, the fear and the expectation.
It is a necessary in some way but it is also at the same time a dangerous thing that comes without warning.
What had really happen? Started out a new in the Uni. It is new for it is a subject that i never known before. But that is not the reason.
When two subjects suddenly become six subjects, it is merely a number that increase. But it was a sad thing.
When all the pressure pile up with works, assignments and research, i know that it won't go easy. I wanted to cry all the way. Thinking that it was a cruel cruel world out there.
But i stayed, i hold up myself in mine, i grab that hand as tight as i can, i will walk up that lane even if i am slow. I have been sleepless for 2 weeks, taking only 2-3 hours of sleep, watching myself getting the work done in time, feeling helpless at some time, a frugal idiot who try to do my best. I felt the pressure, i know it will hit me, but i wanted to finish what i need to do.
I know that this is important to me because i don't want to disappoint anyone in my family. They put a lot of effort and helping me to get my study, making big hopes and plans.
Sometimes i really wanted to cry alone somewhere no one knows. It is sad, i don't even enjoying it. The saddest thing is when i merely struggle with what i want to do. I feel like i am getting behind farer. I couldn't catch up to that big sky.
I decided to keep on to that promise. I will catch up, slow but soon. Even when i was in a class of a big group of people, i still feel lonely ne. I want to stop being weak.
I am alone. I am fine with that. Sometimes when i went to wait for BC's ride, i use the time to draw something on the paper (as a homework). And i merely cried. It was embarrassing but i never did cried.
The hardest thing to accept is when i don't really enjoying what i am doing. I need someone to push me from the back, go forward. Don't take it too hard on myself. After all, it's a challenge that one must overcome. That nightmares that i befriend with, don't get too near. It will only ended up hurting myself.
There are times where i don't even get sleep at all and it is a torture of mind where eyes just kept closing rapidly. I could fall at anytime, i told myself, but i will still hang on til the next sunrise.
She is right, I must learn how to decide. How to become one that is independent. And when my eyes become like a panda's eye, i become numb. At all pains and fears, i couldn't cry at all. I afraid that i become a numb person who couldn't feel anything at all. Numbness. That fear is the most scariest. (sweat)
Once my friend told me that this is the real world, if you don't catch up with them, you will fall.
For a person like me, competition is not my thing. I don't want to win nor do i want to lose. I just want to enjoy the work that i am doing. This life is short and i want to be able to do all i can.
It wasn't fun at all, staying a character who stays in the stage.
The dream that i had is when a child like me who runs toward that big big sky. Will i still be running?
I will.
Please do. Dreaming is nothing unbelievable.
When Dramatic Play Changes. Live on.
ばか
It is a necessary in some way but it is also at the same time a dangerous thing that comes without warning.
What had really happen? Started out a new in the Uni. It is new for it is a subject that i never known before. But that is not the reason.
When two subjects suddenly become six subjects, it is merely a number that increase. But it was a sad thing.
When all the pressure pile up with works, assignments and research, i know that it won't go easy. I wanted to cry all the way. Thinking that it was a cruel cruel world out there.
But i stayed, i hold up myself in mine, i grab that hand as tight as i can, i will walk up that lane even if i am slow. I have been sleepless for 2 weeks, taking only 2-3 hours of sleep, watching myself getting the work done in time, feeling helpless at some time, a frugal idiot who try to do my best. I felt the pressure, i know it will hit me, but i wanted to finish what i need to do.
I know that this is important to me because i don't want to disappoint anyone in my family. They put a lot of effort and helping me to get my study, making big hopes and plans.
Sometimes i really wanted to cry alone somewhere no one knows. It is sad, i don't even enjoying it. The saddest thing is when i merely struggle with what i want to do. I feel like i am getting behind farer. I couldn't catch up to that big sky.
I decided to keep on to that promise. I will catch up, slow but soon. Even when i was in a class of a big group of people, i still feel lonely ne. I want to stop being weak.
I am alone. I am fine with that. Sometimes when i went to wait for BC's ride, i use the time to draw something on the paper (as a homework). And i merely cried. It was embarrassing but i never did cried.
The hardest thing to accept is when i don't really enjoying what i am doing. I need someone to push me from the back, go forward. Don't take it too hard on myself. After all, it's a challenge that one must overcome. That nightmares that i befriend with, don't get too near. It will only ended up hurting myself.
There are times where i don't even get sleep at all and it is a torture of mind where eyes just kept closing rapidly. I could fall at anytime, i told myself, but i will still hang on til the next sunrise.
She is right, I must learn how to decide. How to become one that is independent. And when my eyes become like a panda's eye, i become numb. At all pains and fears, i couldn't cry at all. I afraid that i become a numb person who couldn't feel anything at all. Numbness. That fear is the most scariest. (sweat)
Once my friend told me that this is the real world, if you don't catch up with them, you will fall.
For a person like me, competition is not my thing. I don't want to win nor do i want to lose. I just want to enjoy the work that i am doing. This life is short and i want to be able to do all i can.
It wasn't fun at all, staying a character who stays in the stage.
The dream that i had is when a child like me who runs toward that big big sky. Will i still be running?
I will.
Please do. Dreaming is nothing unbelievable.
When Dramatic Play Changes. Live on.
ばか
Ah~
I am thankful to them.
They have been pushing me from the back.
I will live after all ne.
Iko Iko.
(bgm)
They have been pushing me from the back.
I will live after all ne.
Iko Iko.
(bgm)
At some time..
i thought maybe i write something.
I was merely sad.
I try too hard.
There is times where i wanted to cry-all-out.
Stress. (-3-)
I was afraid of all consequences.
Why?
But now i was merely numb.
I couldn't even cry properly.
It's sad but i don't give a damn on that.
Dumb the whole thing. Crash.
Oh yeah, i am fine. Don't worry. My evilness.
What am i talking about?
Study, of course. (-3-)
I didn't quite get sleep about 2 weeks.
Forgive me. Please let me swim.
I was merely sad.
I try too hard.
There is times where i wanted to cry-all-out.
Stress. (-3-)
I was afraid of all consequences.
Why?
But now i was merely numb.
I couldn't even cry properly.
It's sad but i don't give a damn on that.
Dumb the whole thing. Crash.
Oh yeah, i am fine. Don't worry. My evilness.
What am i talking about?
Study, of course. (-3-)
I didn't quite get sleep about 2 weeks.
Forgive me. Please let me swim.
Swt
It's hot season here.
I am hot.
(O_)?
My brain has been hang on me 4 - 5 times, 2 weeks and some few seconds.
I don't want to move.. (sweat)
I don't want to work.. (>_<)
I don't want to do it anymore.. ((~_)
Headache!!!
Headbang!!!
...
(o~)
Numb.
Let's get to work.
I am hot.
(O_)?
My brain has been hang on me 4 - 5 times, 2 weeks and some few seconds.
I don't want to move.. (sweat)
I don't want to work.. (>_<)
I don't want to do it anymore.. ((~_)
Headache!!!
Headbang!!!
...
(o~)
Numb.
Let's get to work.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Ohayo
Dizzy. (-_-)
Headache. I didn't sleep again yesterday. So i was pretty dangerous in risk of falling asleep in the middle there.
My eyes pain.
I need to recharge!
I tell myself not to get sick.
I tell myself not to give up.
Today, need to go early again. Wish me good luck!
Ganbatte!!! (-3-)
I always keep repeating saying that a few times.
I go take a rest first.
Ittekimasu!
Headache. I didn't sleep again yesterday. So i was pretty dangerous in risk of falling asleep in the middle there.
My eyes pain.
I need to recharge!
I tell myself not to get sick.
I tell myself not to give up.
Today, need to go early again. Wish me good luck!
Ganbatte!!! (-3-)
I always keep repeating saying that a few times.
I go take a rest first.
Ittekimasu!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Sign off
Tadaima.
I just gonna do this quick. Since i am sleepy to dead end.
Today i woke up very early!
Uh.. actually i didn't sleep at all!
Oyasumi!
I just gonna do this quick. Since i am sleepy to dead end.
Today i woke up very early!
Uh.. actually i didn't sleep at all!
Oyasumi!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Ah, positive!?
I will be fine.
Right, just finished some work.
Continue.
My blood pressure is too low.
bgm - Melodies by Kiyoharu
Right, just finished some work.
Continue.
My blood pressure is too low.
bgm - Melodies by Kiyoharu
Don't look for me
I am a bit down today.
Ever since yesterday..
last week..
If it goes on, my energy bar is going down ne.. (game)
Not that i am happy..
I feel sad.
Why?
Ever since yesterday..
last week..
If it goes on, my energy bar is going down ne.. (game)
Not that i am happy..
I feel sad.
Why?
Please hold on
The last post is on January 19. Yikes!
Maa.. (sweat)
I want to write something as quick as i can but i couldn't. (>_<)
Gomenasai gomenasai gomenasai gomenasai.
This is my first apology after CNY ne.
I was too tired and sleepy that i head off to dreamland. But it was a tiresome week.
I couldn't think of anything. I am still tired.
Really, there is many works to do. I need to finish it all by this week.
So..
go go.. (iko iko)
Maa.. (sweat)
I want to write something as quick as i can but i couldn't. (>_<)
Gomenasai gomenasai gomenasai gomenasai.
This is my first apology after CNY ne.
I was too tired and sleepy that i head off to dreamland. But it was a tiresome week.
I couldn't think of anything. I am still tired.
Really, there is many works to do. I need to finish it all by this week.
So..
go go.. (iko iko)
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