At the moment..

Lastly, the mother pc was send to the clinic for some upgrade and check-up. It will be a bit slow and missing for these few days.

This morning, received a call from the technician. He lost a part of the system data file while checking the cpu. =_=;;

Well, he asked me whether to reformat the cpu or not. Do you still have to ask?

The cpu will be back in few days time. So mean while, let's just enjoy the view. G' day! :)

Move out, move in

As to celebrate _butt's successfully move out her little house to a bigger house of blogosphere, here is a PV to celebrate her late open day. Btw, emo-ing is not included, _butt. Happy weekends!

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Flower by Back-on
--Though both of the singer look weird, the song is soooo good to fill up your mind. Enjoy!

Flower -- Back-on

kimi to deaeta no wa kitto guuzen janai
itsu no manika sonna fuu ni omoeteta
dokomade mo tsuduku bokura no tabiji
futo kidukeba saitetanda na
bokura no aida ichirin no hana

arigatoutte sunao ni ienakute
sonna jibun ga daikirai de
tatta hito koto nano ni kuchi ni dasezuni
mune no oku de deguchi wo sagashiteru

makimodosu CLOCK AND PLAYBACK EVERYDAY
daikirai datte saken de mitatte
kage oikakeru DAY BY DAY
ARE YOU READY? asokomade
kakekko bakka iji wo hatteta na
WE ALWAYS MADE SOME NOISE EVERYWHERE

sono toki jaanette kimi ga tsubuyaita
saigo no kotoba yake ni mijikakute setsunakute
tere warai uka be
muriyari dashita kotoba ganbatte
tanemaite mizu wo yatte
hikari daite sakaseta FLOWER sousa
eien ni kareru koto wa nai

nanimo kamo ga barabara ni natte
kowaresoude kiesoude
soredemo bokura sugoshita hibi wo shinjiteru
kawaranai mono zettai aru kara FLOWER

te no hira kara kobore ochita kimi no kakera wo
hiroi atsume tsunagi awase
marude JIGSAW-PUZZLE no you da ne YEAH

UH WE MAKE A HARMONY
JUST LIKE A FLOWER’S MELODY
oretachi no kagayaki marude DIAMOND RING
SO I WANNA SAY TO YOU

arigatoutte sunao ni ienakute
hontou wa kimi ga daisuki de
itsumademo kimi to boku no omoide wa
mune no oku de zutto kagayaiteru
arigatoutte sunao ni ienakute
hontou wa kimi ga daisuki de
doredake toki ga sugisatte mo
kawarazuni saki tsudukeru
zutto kono basho de FLOWER

Note: If you know this song, you know where it is famous for. Eyeshield 21! Abento rules! :)

For Starters

Here is some few question which i asked her at the Yamaha Music Shop. (Though _butt is also in interest with her guitar)

Quick and simple:
1) I am interested in music but not sure where to start. (For example: Piano)
-- Ok, there is 2 type of classes. One which you learn and take exams, the other one is you learn for leisure but no exams. (Currently they have Pop Piano which don't have exams.)

2) How much is the class fee for piano? (per month)
-- Classical piano (learn and take exams) cost around RM93+ while Pop piano (no exams) cost around RM110*, not included RM30 for newly registered student. Which mean its around if you're taking Classical piano (RM93* + RM30 = RM123*) or Pop piano (RM110* + RM30 = RM140*). As you pass through levels, the fee will increase.

*(sorry, forgot the exact numbers cause she describe to me in too details)

3) She added to me about the class timetable.
-- You should check the class timetable first. Each class is half an hour and once a week. Classical piano class, there will be a music teacher personally teach you. They will teach you about basics and so on.

4) Is there an age limit for music lessons?
-- No. If you're over 6 years old and above, its fine because if you're below 6 years old and below, they will have to put you in groups with other children. There is no age limits in music, the most important thing is if you like music, you love music, you appreciate it, you want to learn music, you're interested in music, and you're hardworking in practicing playing music (its essential) that's all it takes.

5) The piano will cost around how much? (I wanted to ask about grand piano but oh well..)
-- Beginners, for starter, the keyboard cost around RM999*. It is almost the same as classical piano as long as it contains 76 standard keys in which classical piano have. Then when move on to the intermediate level, they have the classical piano which cost around RM3300*. There is also electric piano which cost around RM10k*.

*(sorry, forgot the exact numbers cause she describe to me in too details)

6) I want to ask about guitar classes. Is guitar classes the same as piano? (Since _butt loves guitar the most, i thought i might as well ask her for the information)
-- Yes. Guitar class have 2 type of classes. One with exams and one without exams (for leisure only).

7) How much is the class fee for guitar?
-- Guitar classes (with exams) cost around RM88 while (without exams) RM110*. They have the acoustic guitar, electric guitar and so on.

*(sorry, forgot the exact numbers cause she describe to me in too details)

Before i went in to ask, i take a look at the instrument that were on display outside the window. I saw the price tag for acoustic guitar cost around RM550* while the drum set cost around RM3390*. That's interesting.

At first, i was afraid to open the glass door and walk-in to ask. I took a round and have a lunch first. Had a deep thinking and decided to just walk-in and ask. I can't believe it i did that. I am happy as well that i really did walk-in and ask. I am not sure whether she saw me walking right and left near the shop. hmm..

I ended the conversation saying "Thank you very much!". She replied "if you have anything to ask, contact her" while giving her cards. "Yamaha Music" stated there. Of course, I AM HAPPY!

"You can't doubt if you love music!"

Notes: If you want to know more, why not go to Yamaha Music Shop and check it out yourself? :)

Shopping Alone

Today, well this week rather slow and fast. The train always come late, meet different people and do something unexpected.

Supposely to come back early but ended up running late. Have to wait for _butt to come pick me up. So before that, i have extra 2 hours and though it sounds strange, went shopping alone. Just sanpou and window shopping. Got a late hour lunch, mushroom noodles at Uncle Lim's. Sitting there enjoying the food myself, seriously the mushroom noodles need more attention. Well, lets just say 'til you try it yourself.

Window shopping, go round and round the mall. I remember there is a music store somewhere at floor and come to it. I was curious about it and was thinking like 12 times, should i go in and ask? I saw the instrument they were displaying near the glass window, very nice indeed. The prices is inexplainable but nothing worries/limits you if you really interested in music. I was so amuse and can't keep my eyes off. I scared to go in at first because it will sound too stupid to ask, but i DID go in after all with no doubt in my head.

I was calm and excited, the staff at the desk is friendly, i started the conversation asking "I want to ask is there piano class for adults?" (hmm.. it sounds funny) with me still standing. She smile at me and ask me to sit down first. Its a good thing to ask, she explain to me in details for whatever question i have in mind. When i left, she gave me her card and said "If you have anything to ask, you can call this number.". I was very happy though i'm not sure for why, but i'm determined to learn music. I want to learn piano and cello, (oh..) if can let's just say every instrument. Wahaha, that may be possible after all.

If you're interested to know which music shop, it was YAMAHA music shop. First thing i have in mind was Yamaha because it is a trusted brand and they have some music classes for anyone who is interested in music. Whether you're playing it for exam or leisure, if you like music, there's no border and you should play it!

I'll post some question that might you ask (which i asked already) in the next post.

"Find your music, found your sound, with rythm and freedom, play from your heart."

Get Ready

Would this be final? An end to my stupid thinking and stubborness? I wish it so.

Kind of getting lonely at times even when people is around. Try not to think of anything but its getting colder out here. Where i want to be.. Where i want to go..

Honestly, my final year project is getting critical, for i have to finish it within 3 weeks or less. More over, there's a few assignment coming up, while learning how to built a 3D in the computer. Sometimes, i wonder.. is my work really different from what people would expect? I wonder why there are people who have the talent are mostly welcomed by anyone? Getting noticed, being appreciated, being compliment. Is that all? I feel that no one appreciate my work, even when you put a lot of effort in it. I feel sad sometimes.

I'm not sure after graduation, which way i am going. I wanted to do something freely but it is hard nowadays. Studies, working, socialbility, all run through a cycle. Do i prefer working or study? OR just laid down on the field of beautiful grass and watch the sky over me?

Talk about it, there shouldn't be anything to be scared of. Whenever, wherever you go, all goes together. Remember if something goes wrong, you definitely take precautions.

Happy thing is i started to open up my mind, talk out my voice of what i was thinking, making effort and be initiative. My lacking of confidence is homecoming as well with more things to learn.

I fell in-love with piano. Haha-
Right, after Nodame Cantabile which really attracts me. Sonata in D major for two pianos, is always in my head playing. I determined that i want to be a musician to myself, playing piano and cello. You can say i fell in-love with the sound of classic instruments.

Another thing, i try to use the graphic tablet again and it turns out really well. As i started to draw a character already, Gibbit. I decided Gibbit called "Ghibit" in japanese. Haha, Ghibit is real funny. Will let you know the details later.

That is all for now, i wish i can do a great final year project and passing marks in all subjects.

Let Out

A blast 2 weeks time, hoping that it will end as well as start, it was a good thing. No stress, if i feel i want to do something, i will do it. If i don't mind, people don't care to mind. As there is only about 4 weeks time before the superb examination coming, i wish me the best i can and i will.

Just some few times, i thought about it and it gives me a creep, short-breath taking. So all the time, i used it wisely as i can. Important thing is, let's finish all this at once. Taking it easily is no easy work, when i started to feel stressed. Nope, no sign of depression coming.

They can handle the stress by making it someone's. I easily get stress somehow, in silent, where people don't usually take it seriously. I lacked of initiative and socialbility, scared that people would think i'm a fool. Everything seems fine.

One thing that i suddenly feel sad about it after all those years, listen to it and it hit the heart and brain out of it. Have you ever feel that you're "useless" when someone said you're useless? I never think about it before, i know i may not be perfectly good/smart.. I am used to it but when it hits the key part, suddenly it changed. Just like a piano hits the last key of the high pitch and suddenly all went down so fast to the first key.

There will be an exhibition in my college on the coming month, april.

Happy Birthday to Gibbit! (my character design)
Gibbit born on 10 March 2008. As you can imagine, a rabbit with a wings. Yeah, Gibbit comes from "Rabbit". In japanese, its called Aosa Gibbito.

誕生日　お目だと！　青さ　ギッビト！

Jya, mata ne! +)

Hitotsu

Don't know why or don't know what, a sudden heart felt, like it was shaken. Suddenly it doesn't hurt anymore and suddenly it beats. First time, i feel that my way is open. This time, i really stop. Whether is stop being such foolish or stop being a good o'myself, it doesn't really matter how the answer will be and soon, someday later i will definitely realize myself.

*use your power of imagination* listening to Nana iro no Sora wo (Aria OVA Arietta)Time stood still, while last longer.. they just sitted there, near the sea, near the sun. It was silent and people bath in the hot winds, the center where all the soul put their hearts in and dance under the shadow of the melancholic buildings.. historic and artistic wonderful paintings, they put their efforts in it and everything seem to last forever.. in the deep sea blue of gondola..

Genki ni shinasai! "Sometimes if you don't make a mistakes, you never know what other wonderful thing is awaiting you." - Alicia, Aria The Origination

I don't really want to bring anything related to my school days in here. My last semester, next week is another long days. Whether its good or not, i don't expect anything already. Looking forward to that sun.

I want to play a piano. I want to play something. I have a dream to buy a piano and learn playing it. That first piece will be my favourite piece. I understand a bit of the notes. I also dream of cello, my favourite instrument. "Watashi ga cello wa daisuki dakara cello wa OOKI to KAKKOI!" - Sakura-chan, Nodame Cantabile (I love cello because cello is more BIGGER and COOL!) Haha~

Free of plans, i don't wander to think. I wander to enjoy! :)

Requiem

If i have to learn, i find it hard. There is no wondering. If i live, i live to enjoy. Not for the worthless thing, to make a mistake is something that people find it rare. To be able to enjoy the one life you have now, to be able to take your own dream to high level and cherish all the time and thank them for being there to cherish what you had found. I love how things grow to be wonderful. So i thank them.

"If you open your heart to others, they might not need understand, at least, there are more wonderful thing you have ever find."

Futatsu part.2

While eating energy food bar, i'm typing this to let you know that all those hard times does not meant to be useless. Thanks for your food!

In this holiday, i cure my boredom with most of the time watching anime and listen to songs, sing with the singer and dance around like it was a prayer in white skirt. Though time will cure me, slowly i learn to forgive myself. Magnificient heh? Haha~

Just like everyone, when you listen to a song, you get so into it. I start to listen to classical music. When i listen to the orchestra, the music held on my ears, if you close your eye, you can feel how they play it beautifully. Its true that i had my tears when i listen to the beautiful orchestra, watch Nodame Cantabile Real-Live TV series.Which makes my favourite, Sonata in D major for two pianos, Rhapsody in Blue and Beethoven Symphony no.7.

Recently i catch-up episodes with D.Gray Man, Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn, Eyeshield 21, Gunslinger Girl Il Teatrino, Aria The Animation, Aria The Natural, Aria The Origination, Aria OVA Arietta, Hayate no Gotoku and Nodame Cantabile (Anime series).

In these time, i reflect back the days that gone after the clock. Boring, bland, lazy. A few times, i wanted to stop drawing. They will always kept up and takes whatever it is to reach people's attraction. Its like i draw a circle, they will draw a bigger circle. I kept up my own works though i am not that great. When i feel like giving up, i thought it was easy to stop, still, it wasn't me who feel like giving up. So i give it a try again.

I want to draw something, not realistic. Imaginary world, of course its a story and a world that i have in mind. Draw a manga. Find my own style and meets my expectation. "You don't have the things which you don't have.. but you can make the things which you don't have." - Aika-chan, Aria The Origination.

I love american football. Eyeshield 21 is the first sport anime that i could cry for. Haha~ I learn a lot about american football. You need power, technique and speed to play american football. YA-HA!

p/s: The last bite of the energy food bar is hard to eat. =)

Futatsu part.1

It is what i think hard to cherish for the past few months, i've been crying all alone. Afraid of being betrayed or blame. I didn't said i've never been bully before, it is a bit embarassing to say. Though i hate being weak and fight them back. Haha~ that brings back old small times.

Its hard to make friends back at school days. Its either they don't like me or they just smarter than me. I wish i was smart back then, first class, second class, they are so different than me, if i cope with them, it will just make them stay far away. Once, i thought at least i found a few to be called a friend. It was happy days.

College life, the life of youth. My cousin always said that study life is enjoyable. Maybe she was refering to the freedom. Every few months, we manage to get together for a lunch and window shopping. It was a relieved that once in a while, our communication barrier aren't limited to this since they moved out to a new place.

This might be exaggerating, after that first year of study, i might have been feeling tired. Tired and exhausted all along, a road of thorn of bushes. The first time i started to hate everything and fear of many things. It might be heart attack, asthma, depression, panic attack. Avoiding things that might hurt like a shard in the heart. I lost to myself. When i try to make jokes out of nothing, i feel there is no need for me to think about them. People called it crazy, the first few times might not what a person want to hear, the later part doesn't matter in times.